Sometimes we have to let God's dreams be bigger than our dreams for ourselves or our world.
I've spent a lot of years 'dreaming' and have no problems coming up with big plans, big ideas and world-changing opportunities. For some people that comes easily - the execution comes easily, the connections come easily and the results come easily. What doesn't come so easily is asking God what is "good" in those plans and how does that compare to his "best" plan for me?
I've let go of my dreams because I know they are tainted by people, places, unholy motivations and experiences all around me. If I truly believe that this world is not my home, I have to trust in God's ultimate plan for my life and not become so pre-occupied in the DOING that I forget to do the ABIDING.
This is scary stuff. Each and every day brings new opportunities for me to say "Well Lord, this isn't what I would have chosen for myself, and I can see a way out of this by choosing A, B or C but I won't. I won't choose what I can see because I need to trust in what I can't see, in what I can't do, and in what I can't think".
When I don't SEE things happening, I panic. I think to myself "oh, no, I'm wasting my life"....and yet, in quiet moments with God he assures me that it's when I'm NOT DOING but instead trusting, that he IS DOING.....it doesn't mean I can sit around and do nothing, but it does mean that I have to be disciplined in such a way that I am in minute by minute conversation with Him. Not choosing my own thoughts or ideas, but following HIS.
Allowing God to cleanse my motivations in this profound of a way results in a deeper connection to God's ultimate dream for me. HE is the Grand Designer of my life. HE is what I need to be plugged in to. Spending time with HIM is the only thing that is going to connect me to the ultimate dream HE he has for me (and that he created me for).
I now dream of one thing. Of being ONE with HIM. In this life. So that HE can completely and fully work through ME. And guess what.....? He already is.....
In this moment, I am freed from anticipation, I am freed from stress, I am freed from worry, I am freed from guilt, I am freed from bondages that have held me to my worth coming from my activity. I am free to enjoy this moment. Right now. Understanding fully that Jesus died, not so that I could chase some well intentioned idea or thought, but so that I could be freed to let Him live in me.
- A
I've spent a lot of years 'dreaming' and have no problems coming up with big plans, big ideas and world-changing opportunities. For some people that comes easily - the execution comes easily, the connections come easily and the results come easily. What doesn't come so easily is asking God what is "good" in those plans and how does that compare to his "best" plan for me?
I've let go of my dreams because I know they are tainted by people, places, unholy motivations and experiences all around me. If I truly believe that this world is not my home, I have to trust in God's ultimate plan for my life and not become so pre-occupied in the DOING that I forget to do the ABIDING.
This is scary stuff. Each and every day brings new opportunities for me to say "Well Lord, this isn't what I would have chosen for myself, and I can see a way out of this by choosing A, B or C but I won't. I won't choose what I can see because I need to trust in what I can't see, in what I can't do, and in what I can't think".
When I don't SEE things happening, I panic. I think to myself "oh, no, I'm wasting my life"....and yet, in quiet moments with God he assures me that it's when I'm NOT DOING but instead trusting, that he IS DOING.....it doesn't mean I can sit around and do nothing, but it does mean that I have to be disciplined in such a way that I am in minute by minute conversation with Him. Not choosing my own thoughts or ideas, but following HIS.
Allowing God to cleanse my motivations in this profound of a way results in a deeper connection to God's ultimate dream for me. HE is the Grand Designer of my life. HE is what I need to be plugged in to. Spending time with HIM is the only thing that is going to connect me to the ultimate dream HE he has for me (and that he created me for).
I now dream of one thing. Of being ONE with HIM. In this life. So that HE can completely and fully work through ME. And guess what.....? He already is.....
In this moment, I am freed from anticipation, I am freed from stress, I am freed from worry, I am freed from guilt, I am freed from bondages that have held me to my worth coming from my activity. I am free to enjoy this moment. Right now. Understanding fully that Jesus died, not so that I could chase some well intentioned idea or thought, but so that I could be freed to let Him live in me.
- A
Thanks for bein brave and articulating your dream, and "un-activity" of abiding- it's hard work - to abide..... to get to that place of having surrendered so one can abide and trust.....
ReplyDeleteblessings ..... you've articulated the journey's struggles well .... be at peace in trusting and abiding